COMING OFF ANOTHER LONG WEEKEND. DEFINETELY IN THE PROCESS. FINDING MY MOTIVATION. MADE ME A NEW BRACLET TODAY.

WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON

I'VE BEEN TRYING TO MAKE TIME TO FINISH SIMPLIFY. IT'S COMING OUT SOON. I SWEAR IT! THE PROBLEM WITH THE FIDDLE IS A "HOW MUCH IS TOO MUCH" PROBLEM. I KEEP SAWING IT AS IF IT'S THE ONLY INSTRUMENT IN THE SONG. THEN I HOLD MYSELF BACK AND SAY TO MYSELF, "MICHAEL, THE RECORD IS NOT CALLED, 'COMPLICATE MY EYE."

I ALSO WONDER IF THE COLORING BOOK WILL BE DONE BEFORE THE RECORD. I ALSO WONDER IF THE RECORD WILL BE DONE BEFORE I'M SATISFIED. I AM WORRIED. AND I GOT A LOT OF IRONS IN THE FIRE. BUT TODAY I AM OFF OF WORK AND I WILL DO MY BEST TO FINISH. IF IT WASN'T THE BEST RECORD OF MY LIFE I WOULDN'T FEEL SO ANXIOUS. IT'S LIKE I'M STANDING NEAR THE EDGE OF A CLIFF.

just thinking

I WAS JUST THINKING THAT MAYBE THE PRESTINE SOUND QUALITY OF RECENT MUSIC HAS SPOILED US--TO AN END THAT WE CARE MORE FOR THE SOUND OF THINGS THAN WE DO THE EMOTION IN THEM. YOU COULD SAY THAT THERE IS A CLUB BEAT PUSHING UNDERNEATH ALL OF POPULAR MUSIC, BUT YOU COULDN'T SAY THE BEAT IS THE ONLY REASON FOR IT'S POPULARITY; IT SELLS ITSELF ON THE THIN RADIO AS WELL.

AND I DON'T THINK THAT ALL OF POP MUSIC IS VOID OF EMOTION. IT EXPRESESS A LACK OF CAREFULLNESS IN EVEN IT'S CAREFULLY CONSTRUCTED THUMP. BUT I BELEIVE LARGELY THAT IT'S OUR CULTURE DEMANDING WHAT'S EASY. OUR CULTURE IS DEMANDING SIMPLE SOUND COLORS TO FIT OUR MONETARY FRAMES OF MIND. PERHAPS WE WILL AGAIN CARRY OUR SITUATIONS AND ENCOUNTERS WITH US FROM CLUB TO HOME. PERHAPS MUSIC WILL SOMEDAY BE A BIGGER PART OF OUR LIVES AGAIN.