New Show!

Also I'm playing at the Perk On Weddington, Friday 6-9p.m.

gone away

check out my very first youtube video celbrating the completion of Simplify My Eye.

SIMPLIFY FINISHED

I AM HAPPY TO REPORT THAT THE RECORD IS FINISHED. NOW I HAVE A LOT OF FREE TIME. I WILL BE SPENDING THIS TIME SEEING YOU LIVE, CONCEPTUALIZING THE FINAL RECORD OF THE GRIEF SERIES AND PREPPING SOME PRETTY HEAFTY INTERNET PROMOTIONS.

I PROMISE TO BE MORE AVAILABLE. A HUGE WEIGHT HAS BEEN LIFTED, BUT THE PAIN WAS WORTH THE PLEASURE I HAVE NOW. I HAVE JUST FINISHED THE GREATEST MUSIC I HAVE EVER WRITTEN...NOW IT'S TIME TO TAKE A BREATH.

great idea

Had a great idea.

Thought that I might do a cocert tour to promote the Grief Series. I would play the two most loved songs from each record in the order they were recorded--this way the audience can watch the emotions unfold.

It will be a well thought out stage performace with many characters playing various roles. I myself will play the feature instruments from all five records (which means that i have to change instruments every two songs) but if we rehearse it enough we can make it smooth.

I just want to do justice to the series as well as play a string of big shows before I leave town. Were talking about lights and video in a real emotional stage play--where the lyrics are the voice and the music is the soundtrack, seems simple (and visual)

still simplifying my eye

THE MORE I THINK ABOUT FINISHING THIS RECORD THE MORE I THINK I'M GOING TO HAVE TO REDISCOVER WHAT IT MEANS. EACH RECORD OF THE GRIEF SERIES HAS UNDERGONE AN INTENSE FINAL PRODUCTION PROCESS. I USUALLY LIVE THE RECORD FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS. I MAKE SURE IT MEETS ALL THE CRITERIA AND THAT I MYSELF KNOW HOW IT DESCRIBES IT'S STAGE IN THE GRIEF SERIES COMPLETELTY. I DIDN'T THINK THERE WAS ANYTHING MORE TO LEARN...OR I'M MAD AT MYSELF FOR TAKING SO MUCH TIME AWAY FROM THIS ONE...I'M SURE IT WILL WORK OUT IN THE END.

SO I GOT TO GO HOME (EVERY GOOD CHANCE I GET) AND LISTEN TO EVERY WORD AND IMAGINE THAT I AM A PERSON WHO HAS JUST FINISHED THE OTHER THREE...IMAGINE I AM SITTING THERE EXPERIENCING LIFE AND DEATH...EXPERIENCING REBIRTH...EXPERIENCING THE SAME RECORD FROM A DIFFERENT MINDSET (OVER AND OVER AGAIN) I HAVE TO WONDER WHERE MICHAEL SCOTT IS TAKING ME. I'LL WONDER IF THE NEXT RECORD WILL SIMPLY BE AN EXPLOSION. I'LL WONDER IF I CAN TAKE IT ANYMORE. AND AS THE RECORD GOES ON I'LL WONDER THAT I'M STILL ALIVE.

WHEN I FININSH THE RECORD...WHEN I KNOW THAT I KNOW THAT I KNOW THAT I'M DONE...I'LL BREATHE A HEAVY BREATH AND PREPARE TO BRING MY AUDIENCE ONE STEP CLOSER TO THE EDGE OF THAT CLIFF. WE'LL BE ON TOP OF THE WORLD LOOKING DOWN AT THE MAGNITUTE OF ONE STRUGGLEING SOUL. FROM HERE WE CAN SEE ALL OF MICHAEL SCOTT AND KNOW THAT HE HAS GIVEN EVEYTHING TO INCLUDE HIS EVERY NUANCE. IT MIGHT NOT BE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL PICTURE BUT IT IS A COMPLETE PICTURE. IT WILL BE THAT MUCH MORE "SIMPLE" AND CLEAR FOR YOU WHEN THIS ONE'S DONE.

smoke break

standing outside. studying for a test. wondering how much material can stick when you are mindlessly reading.

realized that it does have something to do with how much you trust what's internal.

a fleeing thought: this is one of the most important days of my life. i've reached
 new territory. i have seperated myself from new people...and there's no guilty conscience. her test is written in foreign language. my understanding is God-given. i am trusting.

i look to the sky and see the leaves fall. i know that this is one of the most important days of my life. i also know that i will have so many more of these. i've reached new ground. on this ground i stand both humbely and proudly. i have written verses of words to convince myself of these things.

i love myself now. i trust myself. i have put so much evil doubt to rest. i wonder what the leaves falling have to do with where i am...with who i am. i realize that after this strong summer some things will die. i realize that i will never die. i will live on in the path i have choosen. and i realize that this moment is a small story representing my entire lifetime.

i walk back towards the school and i pretend that the door opening represents that time when i'll walk through the gates of heaven. everything is a gift. every color. every person means something very specific for me. God has given me wisdom and the courage to accept that some things die. these lessons shudder through me as i look forward to more of God's love.

been thinking a lot about the ucoming project. that's how i know that simplify has to be done soon. i feel like the music makes itself and it's trying to get me to begin the planning process.

usually i get mad. i say i wish i didn't have so much school and work standing in between me and a finished record. but that's old junk! i chose to be here. furthermore, most of the battle was teaching myself that i was capable of finishing the record (or if you want to think of it this way: i was capable of simplifying my eye.)

all i had to do was wear some holy jeans for a few days. halloween allowed me to do that. in no time my fiddle was sounding more in tune. now i'm just waiting to finish with my teeth on edge.

yes folks. i am getting better at this. you are entering my private world of music. there are much more intimate changes to follow. this has begun in high gear since i attempted to post that beautiful unfinished post.

thanks for listening to me. i feel wild today.